I know I said I was going to start blogging regularly and so far I'm totally failing..my bad. but I'm trying to get better, I promise!
well, as most of you probably already know, I started classes this week. everything was fine and dandy until last night..I had, what you could call, a mini mental breakdown. okay, I'm being a liiiittle dramatic but you get the point.
my day started off pretty normal; went to class, had an hour break and read a book, went to class, went to lunch with kristen, and then went home to the apartment. it was my first day of anatomy lab and I was super stressed about it even after class was over. so to relieve a little stress, I cleaned/organized my closet and bathroom, hung up some new picture frames, and did a little facebook stalking. then to put off some homework and skyped with one of my best friends, caroline. after that, my day went downhill real fast.
I was being super moody and cranky for no apparent reason. I thought venting to the boyfriend would help and it did for about 3.4 seconds and then I was all upset again. at this point, I had no idea why I was so upset. so what does every girl do when they are confused about their life? call/text their mommy! (and btw, my mom has some of the best advice everrr) I texted her and asked her a perfectly logical question, if I could drop out of school and live on my brother scott's futon in blacksburg. and what do you think she said? typical, she said no...scott and I had it all planned out too! oh well..a few seconds later, I burst into tears. I thought I was losing my mind for crying over nothing but of course, mama bear cheered me up!
why was I crying? yeah, thats an excellent question and I wish I had the answer for you. I told barrett that I just needed a good cry and that probably added to my river of tears. another big part was that I was feeling so overwhelmed with classes starting and actually having homework to do. so basically, it was just me being dramatic that made me cry.
and if you were wondering, I feel much better today! every morning, barrett calls me between 6.45 and 7am before his 7.30 class to wake me up and chat for a few minutes. I know this sounds crazy, but we don't have a lot of time to talk during the day, so its worth it to be woken up an hour or so before my alarm :) cheesy...I know but whatever! its about 5.15 and I'm all done with classes and I'm gonna go hit the gym and work on my fitness. hopefully this will help relieve some of the left over stress from last night.
love yall!
Everyone who has ever gone to college has had that "mini-meltdown" moment! And, it's usually at the beginning of a new semester right after a nice long break...it's never as bad as it seems, but it can be overwhelming ! You should have told your mom you were dropping out and going to live under a bridge !!
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